As a leader, I try to grow and better myself.  In essence, I am trying to fix my flaws and yes, I do have some.  I have always been a thinker.  My brain rarely shuts off from thinking about things and ideas.  Sonya will often think I am mad at her because I am quiet.  But I am only thinking.  Ideas swirl in my head.  One of my flaws has been that I have alot of ideas but sometimes they do not come to pass because of the way I process them.

I am a computer geek!  Everything I do is by technology such as computer or on my Blackberry.  The problem here is I put my ideas into files on my computer and I never go back and look at them.  Hence, the demise of a good idea. 

Over the last couple of months I have been changing the way I process ideas.  Believe it or not, I am using the old fashioned method of pen and paper.  I bought a few Black and Red notebooks, which are hardback, and I write down my ideas, sermon thoughts, plans, vision and in-depth Bible studies.  I have a different notebook for different things, but my idea notebook I carry with me most of the time. 

This has helped me to be able to simply pick up the notebook and refer back to my ideas so that they do not get lost. I am seeing more of my ideas come to pass and I feel more organized than ever.  Who would have ever thought of using pen and paper?  The technology generation is good, but there are some benefits of reverting back to the old way.

Sermon Series Thought

I am now officially recognized by the state of Arkansas as a resident.  I got my new drivers license today.  The hardest part about that is having to memorize a new number.  I had the same number in Texas for 21 years.

Here is an interesting dialogue between Jesus and one of His disciples.  It was written by Ben Arment:

“J:  Listen, when you go into someone’s house, stay there until it’s time to leave. Don’t bring any food or clothes or anything. If the people don’t welcome you, then go outside the town and shake the dust off your feet.

P:  Well, we thought we’d just hand-out flyers. Put them on door knobs and all. Probably won’t even run into anyone. Figure we’ll knock it out in about three hours.

J:  What do you mean, flyers?

P:  You know, like, papyrus that says how you’re gonna be at the ‘gogue’ this weekend.

J:  But what about the power and authority I gave you?

P:  We used it on graphic design.

J:  On what?

P:  How ’bout a wheat buy-down?”

Are we building a church through marketing or the power of God?  When the power of God is absent, we have to rely more on marketing.  Just a thought!

I am mostly a humbug when it comes to Christmas, but my greatest joy is giving gifts.  If you asked Hannah what she wanted from “Santa Claus” she would tell you, “I want a park in my backyard.”  Her eyes would light up and she would look out the back window for where she wants her park to be.

Last week, her dream became a reality.  My dad was in town and put together her swing set.  The joy of Christmas for me was to see her face shine when she saw her park for the first time.  She played while, listing of all of the things there are to do on her swingset.  She was elated to finally have a park in her backyard.

Josh, on the other hand, has been wanting a dog for two years but we didn’t have a fenced in yard in Nederland.  He was always discourage because we wouldn’t get him a dog.  In fact, he said when he dies he wanted us to put on his tombstone, “All a boy needs is a dog and a mother who will let him have one.”  Well, this year he has a mother who will let him have one.  We now have a fenced yard and we decided to buy him a dog.  He was shocked when we let him know and he has been a new kid since.  He even, cleaned his room without us asking.  Sonya said, “If that is all it took we would have bought him a dog a long time ago.”

This is my greatest joy at Christmas.  Giving.  I love to see the surprise and the happiness of others when they receive a gift.  When my kids are happy it makes me happy.  Overall, Christmas is about gifts.  God gave us a gift in His son Jesus.  It delights the heart of God when we receive that gift.  That is the purpose of Christmas!

This evening before church I was unloading the dishwasher and Hannah wanted to help:)  Well, she wasn’t wanting to help, she was just wanting to grab everything.  She would pull out the breakable glasses…I would tell her to “STOP”.  Next, she would try to climb on the dishwasher door, I would say, “DON’T”.  Then she would go for the steak knives.  “NO!”  It was an endless cycle of crying out, “Stop, Don’t, No!”  We went round and round until I was exasperated.  Flustered to the core!

As I was a frustrated, I thought of how God feels sometimes.  We are older than two year olds but yet it seems that we get into stuff all the time that we shouldn’t.  I can imagine God saying the same things to us. “Stop, wrong way.”  “Don’t do that!  It is not good for your soul.”  “No, that is off limits.”  How often does God get flustered with us because we keep doing “no-no’s”?  Into everything and going down the same paths that He always tells us we shouldn’t go?  Getting into things that we know is wrong.  Yet God continues to steer us, correct us and try to tighten the reins so that we will not fall away. 

God is a God of grace and mercy but I often wonder if He gets flustered by the way His children acts.

“For however devoted you are to God, you may be sure that he is immeasurably more devoted to you.”

-Meister Eckhart-

Maybe it is my personality type but at times I have struggled with procrastination.  Never on the big things, but on the smaller tasks that seem, well, small.  I work good under pressure but sometimes that can be a fault.  I have endeavored for years to overcome this quirk of mine, so I bought a book on procrastination.  (Eat That Frog, by Brian Tracy) The sad thing is I never finished the book on procrastination:)

Yesterday, I was reading about the great poet Coleridge.  In this writing it was describing the man’s genius but that he never reached his fullest potential because he lost focus.  Let these words sink in:  “It has been said of him: ‘He lost himself in visions and work to be done, that always remained to be done.’  Coleridge had every poetic gift but one–the gift of sustained and concentrated effort.”

We must focus on what we believe God has placed within our hearts to accomplish.  We cannot allow our vision of what needs to be done to continue to be undone.  I have determined in my life to no longer procrastinate the important things in life.  It requires discipline!  Discipline to accomplish great things for God.  Let us pursue the vision God has for our life and do it without procrastination.

Please pray for a couple named Larry and Theresa that God would bless there upcoming marriage.  They are asking for freedom from a spirit of rejection and that God would reveal to them the depths of their own hearts so that they can start their marriage off right.